7-27-08

10-31-02

God said “give up your child to me”,one day.
I didn’t know if He meant physically,or spiritually.
I thought physically,and refused Him in this.
I began to see the anguish in this as a father?
But whether I chose to disobey,or just didn’t understand
I went into much suffering.

I began to realize and see He meant to loose her spirit
from my heart,spiritually?
Give her up to Him,and let her go in faith.
Oh! we’re still friends her and I,but now there is a peace
within me.
I am no longer in conflict with disobedience, I now
understand.

You see,basically my daughter blames me for her
mothers death,even though she went home to Him.
I know through the years I counseled others,that I was
blamed because I was handy? She never understood the
complexities of a marriage relationship with grownups,
what kid does?

Love can take a multitude of avenues in a childs life,
which they will not see until adulthood brings a
more mature revelation?
I have given her to my God,now
and I know that even tho He may take me to be with Him
first?
She will come to know Her God,just as her brother did,
because my faith tells me that He will keep His promise
wherever I am at?

In the meantime, my daughter is in hard times,
walking in this world without her God.
Learning life without Him.
I pray differently now,instead of “help her oh! lord”,
I pray, “Your will,not mine lord.”
She is in His hands now, and I know,better than mine.
Turning loose of loved ones is an act of love too!

“My soul, wait thou only upon God;
for my expectation is from him.”

Psalm 62:5

“For the vision is yet for an appointed
time,but at the end it shall speak,and not
lie:though it tarry, wait for it: because it
will surely come, it will not tarry.”

Habakkuk 2:3

“Let us hold fast the profession of our
faith without wavering; (for he is faithful
that promised;

Hebrews 10:23

In His love,

lampwickke xxx